I just took a big sip of grown up juice

The other day I traded in my baby Jeep and leased a 2007 Chevy Cobalt. Everything is under my name, so this car is all mine. I'm still getting used to driving a car that wasn't made in the 90s. I have to get more adjusted to it. BUT I did put $20 into my tank yesterday and it filled it up 3/4 of the way!!!!!! But alas all the money I'll be saving on gas will be going straight to either lease bills or insurance bills. :| It's weird because even thought I'm going to be neck deep in car payments for  AT LEAST the next 5 years, I kind of don't mind it. I think it shows that I'm taking a step in the right direction and that I'm becoming an adult. This is a huge step for me!

But unless I get a raise or a job that pays a helluva lot more, I don't see me moving out anytime soon. But I guess we will see where life takes me. I'm still doing that thing where I'm taking things one step at a time and not worrying what's going to happen in the future. Honestly, lately I've been happier than I've ever been with a few sucky nights here and there but nothing I can't get passed.

Next weekend is Thanksgiving which is by far always the best weekend of the year! And I'm so excited for it! Eeeeee!

How nice--to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive.

"She's a demented circus monkey"-Mark


Yep. That about sums it up.

But, mooooomm, I don't wanna shower!

You might say "Oh but you can make the water super hot and it feels nice when you're cold". Nay! First you have to like get naked (by the way it's cold enough to snow in my house so this part is not enjoyable). Then you have to wait there with your shivering body while the water takes its sweet time getting hot. By this time, I've almost given up on showering. Then yeah it's nice nice nice until.....you realize you've been in the shower for a half hour and you might be late for work now. So now you have to turn off the shower. And walk outside of the stall into a room that I can only describe as a place where only Mr. Freeze can reside. Then I realize I need to get back to my room as quickly as possible because this tericloth robe that barely covers my bum is NOT going to cut it. Once I get to my room, I quickly decide that the only sanctuary I have is going back into my bed under the warm covers. Where I inevitably fall asleep and will be in fact late for work.

Trust me, if I could take showering off the list of things I have to do everyday to be a normal part of society, I would.

I've been doing this thing lately where I drink with my friends over the internet during the week. Well, it's usually  just Mark but sometimes there are others. And it sounds REALLY lame but honestly I have more fun just drinking and talking to my friends that I don't get to see on a daily basis (which is all of them) than I do going to a party and drinking. It's strange but it's a helluva lot more personal when I'm talking to someone drunk online than it is when I'm at a party where conversation is usually simple and nothing worth remembering. I mean, I obviously have those meaningful conversations with people in real life too but it's starting to become very distant. (It's funny because this same subject matter has been mentioned in 3 other of my friends' blogs. So I can't be imagining this.)

My diet has been going pretty well. I've lost 5 lbs thus far. Which may not be alot but it's a feat in my eyes. I've been pretty good at denying soda, beer, and caffeine from my diet. I've been eating salads, yogurt, and fruit throughout my day at work and eating a healthy (sometimes not) dinner when I get home. I signed up for the gym...went twice. But I have been doing mini workouts in my room. So I'm not being a complete sloth. I joke around with people that I want to be 100 lbs. Which is absolutely ridiculous. I just want to be back to where I was sophomore/junior year of college. That's what I want. Gotta shed this beer weight off of me. I blame Ramapo.