Today, I woke up at 8am and took a very long walk in Cattus Island, this little wildlife "reserve" basically down the street from my house. I say reserve with quotations because the only wildlife it's reserving is deer, squirrels and snakes, which I suppose need reserving as much as anything else. I listened to Local Natives on my walk. And I came to the realization that I can't listen to Gorilla Manor without thinking about this time last year. How terribly happy I was while at the same time being terribly lost and overwhelmed with feelings for someone else.

Sometimes I think it's annoying that music can associate with different times or feelings you had at a certain point. But, I also think it's wonderful. It's almost as if when those feelings you had go away with time another sensation heightens. Memory. And when you hear something that reminds you of that time, it's practically overwhelming. I can't listen to Little Secrets by Passion Pit or Forever by Chris Brown or the album All Hail West Texas by the Mountain Goats without thinking about certain people. Sometimes I cry, other times I smile throughout the entirety of it. It's a win/lose situation that I'm not entirely unhappy about.

After my walk, I went on my cousin's new boat. Next summer just entered a whole new ballgame. I'll be doing nothing but water skiing, boating, water tubing and jet skiing. Something about being out on the water is so soothing to me. Completely relaxing and I can't help but smile the entire time we are coasting.

I had a really nice and relaxing weekend despite the debacle that happened on Friday with my surgery being cancelled. It was something I definitely needed and sadly weekends by myself just walking around is something I can get used to.