All good things must come to an end

The weekend I had been looking forward to since July has finally come and went. It was everything I had hoped for. It was a vacation that I needed.

Between bar hopping in Baltimore for Halloween and going to see M83 in DC, I really couldn't have asked for a better weekend. M83 was absolutely amazing and I don't think I ever danced so much at a concert. So good!

I also don't think I can ask for any better of friends than the ones I was with this weekend. I just am soso lucky. We just all joked around and drank and just had general merriment everywhere we went. I'm having so much fun with living life one day at a time and not worrying about things like I normally would.

And then there are parts of me that are thinking maybe I'm having too much fun with some things but then the other parts of me are saying that everything is going to be all right. Which I'm almost confident they are :D

I think I like to analyze people too much. I really enjoy knowing why a person is the way they are. I just made one of my friends tell me stories about this one girl that a group of my friends used to be friends with their freshman year of college. I'm so intrigued by this girl. I have no idea why. Maybe because the stories are so entertaining and fucked up. I don't know. Maybe I'm just nosy.

Yeah that's probably what it is.

For the first time, in an incredibly long time, I feel very content with my life. I feel like the past year or so, I've been focusing so much on why I'm sad that I've lost touch with the things/people who actually make me happy. It feels good.

Yesterday, I went into Philly with Mark and Keith to see Portugal. the Man. I've never really listened to them before but I don't often get to hang out with just Mark and Keith so I decided it would be fun to go. I've missed hanging out with them so much. I almost forgot what it was like to be with friends and there not be drama involved. Just us having fun, walking around the city, getting drinks. It was really great. It made me realize (after a year of them being in different states) that just because a friend is living in a separate state doesn't mean the friendship is going to disappear. It's a nice feeling.

I am having the most frustrating day today. I just want to go home and not be at this fucking office anymore.

I also have to go get drinks with these people after work. I can't fucking escape.

Srsly, the only thing I want to occupy is my bed. Leave me alone with everything else.

When you least expect it...

I'm still proud of this picture I photoshopped. I'M GONNA SHOW IT OFF SOME MORE.

Today, I woke up at 8am and took a very long walk in Cattus Island, this little wildlife "reserve" basically down the street from my house. I say reserve with quotations because the only wildlife it's reserving is deer, squirrels and snakes, which I suppose need reserving as much as anything else. I listened to Local Natives on my walk. And I came to the realization that I can't listen to Gorilla Manor without thinking about this time last year. How terribly happy I was while at the same time being terribly lost and overwhelmed with feelings for someone else.

Sometimes I think it's annoying that music can associate with different times or feelings you had at a certain point. But, I also think it's wonderful. It's almost as if when those feelings you had go away with time another sensation heightens. Memory. And when you hear something that reminds you of that time, it's practically overwhelming. I can't listen to Little Secrets by Passion Pit or Forever by Chris Brown or the album All Hail West Texas by the Mountain Goats without thinking about certain people. Sometimes I cry, other times I smile throughout the entirety of it. It's a win/lose situation that I'm not entirely unhappy about.

After my walk, I went on my cousin's new boat. Next summer just entered a whole new ballgame. I'll be doing nothing but water skiing, boating, water tubing and jet skiing. Something about being out on the water is so soothing to me. Completely relaxing and I can't help but smile the entire time we are coasting.

I had a really nice and relaxing weekend despite the debacle that happened on Friday with my surgery being cancelled. It was something I definitely needed and sadly weekends by myself just walking around is something I can get used to.

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